You know, you talk so much shit behind a monitor?
Can I ask you why? You constantly nerve me, you know that? You're like the ugly girl at a party who won't leave me alone (and I'm being serious). All I ask you for is peace, all you want is to amuse yourself, and you know what? Nobody cares! Have you ever taken a step back and actually looked at that? You make your own wares, I'll make mine. Stop being so kiddish, I mean OMG.
I mean, can't you look at this whole situation? I don't lie to people, I don't fake people out. The reason my stuff doesn't work out is because I either don't have the resources for it or I get bored of it. But you know what? I've acted pretty dumb in the past, and now I believe I've learned from it, and what do I have? A team who's working as hard as they can on a videogame. Yes, we all know you're into videogames and you make some pretty ones too, but that doesn't mean just because you don't like me you have to make my life a hell.
This is one place where I would prefer to keep my sanity. Do you know what I'm going through? Would you care to hear? This place is like a haven away from all the shit my life is throwing at me now. I know humor can be fun every once in awhile, but what you're giving me isn't humor, it's just plain rudeness! What if we were to speak in real life, huh? What would you say to me? I'm not being tough at all, but you need to take that into consideration and stop laughing behind your computer screen, and you need to stop masking yourself. Maybe you're upset because I have the power to open up myself to strangers? You see my picture everywhere, I talk about my life all the time, I openly bring my team/game public, I'm just that kind of person. I don't use a screenname, I don't use anything. You, on the other hand, have a couple of monikors, don't give out your location, don't talk about your life, you don't do any of that. Why don't you? Can you honestly tell me that?
What about this? Look at what I'm going through. I'm struggling to pay bills and keep my own house from getting turned upside down. Making games isn't something that I have the time to do, I have a real life and that's what stops me most of the time. Especially since the fact I'm transgendered, and my family just found out! How insane is that? Trust me, it's so humiliating. The last thing I want is shit from people like you on the internet. I mean, did you just insantly hate me from the beginning? I can see how it would influence one's behavior but just realize that there's so much more to me than that!
And if you were man enough, you would respond to me instead of avoiding me every time I bring it up. You can either reply to this here or in a thread, if you need the head trip.
Either way, you'd better get back to me. Wait,
please get back to me. I just want to know why. I'm not kissing ass, I'm not asking you to stop. I just want to know why.
Thanks!
-CA
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