books i want to buy:
100 Years of Solitude
The Unbearable Lightness of Being: A Novel
Notes From Underground
Death and the Penguin
The Wind-Up Bird Chronicle
Heart of a Dog
The Rum Diary
it's 2 in the afternoon and im really thirsty and feel like i have to shit but i cant move
i can taste my breath its gross but dont want to brush my teeth cause i think a toothbrush in my mouth will make me puke and i dont think i can move
i feel like im gonna vomit and my head is killing me. i feel like dying. i have a date at 4:30 this afternoon...like only 2 hours away and i really dont wanna go. i dont wnna drive and i wont even be able to get it up anyway. and i think im gonna gag myself to make myself puke and see if i feel better if i dont have a stomach full of beer
im incredibly exhausted but cant sleep. when i close my eyes it feels like im spinning and my brain is pounding against my skull. i feel like i'm stuck in a muddy swamp and each action, no matter how small, takes a tremendous amount of effort.
im gonna go sit on the toilet i think but im worried if ig et up im gonna puke before i get there
i lost my cell phone last night and i already called the bar and they said it wasnt there. i hope its in my friend's car but when i called him he didnt answer. i hope i didn't get in a fight with him last night. im worthless
im ctrlnuke and theoneandonly
i dont care if i get banned again
took a nasty ass shit that exited like a shotgun blast while i was drinking some water and i feel better
i think i am gonna go on that date but dont think im gonna fuck her anyway. she gave me a handjob on the back of a movie theatre on st patty's but she wasn't very good at it and i didn't cum. and whenever i reached between her legs she would bat my hand away and she wouldnt suck my cock when i told her to. so whatever ill probably just get another awkward hand job but am too hung over to really care, and some company would be nice.
date tomomorrow night with a 33 year old that im definitely going to fuck cause sometimes the tension is so palpable you can feel it and you just know
date saturday night with a girl that im pretty sure im gonna fuck. shes only 18 though and aspires to be a cheerleader for the junior college.
i do my best thinking on the toilet
i just wish i knew where my cell phone was
toilet update 3/20/09
only thing i ate yesterday was a greasy pork quesadilla about 8pm last night. bad thinking in hind sight. this is gonna take multiple flushes to clean the toilet bowl.
phone update 3/20/09
found it right before leaving for my date yesterday, 3/19/09 about 4pm. was turned off and inside my shoe.